New year is coming..

This is just my new year...

Ok.. It can be: new age too.. anyway..

I dont know if it is good or bad.. in fact dont make difference... not now!

I never liked much my birthdays.. I liked the partys, not my birthday.. I think it is because... i born near carnaval, and everyone are always traveling... maybe...

But.. birthdays is like a normal days for me.. there is just one difference.. That is: a cake! huuumm cakes!!! ((Yes i'm fat! what's the problem?))

Before... when i was a child it was very fun, because my family was together and all of them come to my home and it was fun...

But now.. actually... Just one more day, i am one year older now!

Not important... i dont know if it can cause any effect on my life...

But.. today I throw many many things! It was good! My mom said: It means that you are begin to organize your life! This is very good!!

"Thanks Mom!"

maybe I have no reason for celebrate my birthday.. but I am alive, I must be thank for it!

so...

"Thanks God for my life!"

I wanted just one thing on my birthday! YOU!

LOVE LOVE LOVE!

tha's all!

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Esse é só o meu ano novo...

Ok... pode ser: nova idade também.... tanto faz...

Eu não sei se isso é bom ou ruim, na verdade não faz diferença... não agora!

Eu nunca gostei muito dos meus aniversários... gostava das festas, não do aniversário, do dia em si. Eu acho que é porque... Eu nasci perto do carnaval, então sempre todas as pessoas estavam viajando... é talvez por isso!

Mas.. aniversários são como dias normais pra mim.. só tem uma diferença. E ela é: o bolo! Aiii boloooos!!! ((Sim, eu sou gorda... e daí?))

Antes quando eu era criança, os aniversarios eram bem divertidos... todo a minha familia ia na minha casa... meus primos.. era bem divertido....

Mas agora, na verdade.. é só mais um dia... um ano mais velha....

Eu não sei se isso causa algum efeito na minha vida, mas... hoje eu joguei muitas muitas coisas fora... Isso foi bom! Minha mãe disse: "Isso significa que vc está começando a organizar sua vida, isso é bom!"

"Obrigada mãe!"

Bom.. talvez eu não tenha razão para comemorar meu aniversário, mas.. ainda estou viva.. e devo agradecer por isso! Então...

"Obrigada Deus pela minha vida!"

Eu queria só uma coisa no meu aniversário! Você!

Amo Amo Amo!

Isso é tudo!

Happiness...

After 6 or 7 days without you... You came! I could see you! I could talk to you!
Finally my hapiness back...
If you knew how much I missed you!
I hope everything is gonna be allright for us!

Because you are all that I want...
Because be near you is all that I want...
Because see you live is all that I want...
Because hug you is all that I want...
Because walk with you is all that I want...
Because just stay with you is all that I want...
Because I wanna do somethings with you...
Because I wanna do nothing with you too...


Actually I can say all that i want in 3 words:
Seni çok Seviyorum!!!

This can resume all things in me!
All that I fell is because Seni çok Seviyorum!
I think that is the most strong felling!!

And love can change and support everything!


"Sevgi sabırlıdır, sevgi şefkatlidir. Sevgi kıskanmaz, övünmez, böbürlenmez.
Sevgi kaba davranmaz, kendi çıkarını aramaz, kolay kolay öfkelenmez, kötülüğün hesabını tutmaz.
Sevgi haksızlığa sevinmez, gerçek olanla sevinir.
Sevgi her şeye katlanır, her şeye inanır, her şeyi umut eder, her şeye dayanır.
Sevgi asla son bulmaz."




By Carol

nhaaa

...

That's all..








..and enough!

What I can say....

And, I am here again... on the beach...
but now, I am alone!
I can't live without you!
I can feel the wind in my face, i can feel the water and the sand in my feet!
I can see the sea, and I can stay here a lot of time...
Now I can know how you was felling when you was on the beach until 5:00a.m!
but i am far from beach too!

The wind play with my hair... I can imagine when you will play with them...
I like wind in my hair sooo much, but i will love your hands!

I am sitting on the sand, but there isn't anyone with me, and I think on you!
I want you with me all time!

I can not stop think on you...

There is only a word that describe what my heart is felling now...
That word is:

Yes.. written in the sand!


I love you! I miss you!
I am waiting you!!!

Who am I?

I wont put the letter...



I think it is enought for now!!!





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I miss you sooooo much!

I miss you!!!

You can not know how much I miss you!

You said me: Dont worry! - but it is impossible in my position. Try to understand.. you know me!

So i'm writing for you! Yes, here too!

I cant thing anything other than you! I can not imagine how are you....

I just can say: I miss you so much! Seni çok seviyorum!

You must know that: i wont give up too!!! I can not order to my heart "dont love him". It is done!

Now is much later! If i wanted i couldnt give up you now, and i will never do it!

You are in me now, i can not explain it good, but i believe that you can fell it too!!!

I am yours!

I think I am getting crazy... I can see you all time! I dream with you all night!

Everytime when my phone rings in my home I think that I will asnwer it and I will listen your voice!

In fact, I am getting crazy really!

I don't know how you are now! But i dont received your news, so I think this is not very good!

Hope...
I can not imagine why I think in you when I see this word! Or beach! I dont know why, but beach make me think on you!
I just want to say... I will never forget you! I wont give up you! And you make me cry, dont worry! I was happy... my tears was of hapiness this time!

Bebegim... Seni çok seviyorum!
I cant say other thing other that it!
I am waiting you! Dont mind how much time or what i will have to do for it, but I know...
We will be near!!! we will be together!!! All our life!!! It is all that I want!!!
Something in me say that: You are my promise!!! You are my hope!!! You are my life now!!!

I am sorry!!! I can not change it! One day i said: I can change everything for you! I think i was wrong, I can not change my fellings anymore! I am sorry for spoil your life! But I am helpless too that time! Now I know exactly how you was felling... I am to helpless than you now! And I hate this position too!
But I am sure about it: You are my boy! I am your baby! I am your honey! I am yours!!!
It is all that I know!

Bebegim... I can leave all things for you! You know.. if I could I leave here now and go there!

I am waiting you!

by Carol Ayfus

Always on my mind!!!

Always on my mind
Always in my heart

I've been waiting for you night after nine
Like a shadow, staying close to the light
Suddenly, you stand beside of me
And I see a million burning stars

You are always on mind
Always in my heart
And I can hear you call my name on a mountain high

Always on my mind
Always in my dreams
I wanna hold you close with me
Always, all the time!

I believe i'm addicted to you
In your eyes, I see dreams coming true
Finally I have found you
And now I will never let you go!

You are always on mind
Always in my heart
And I can hear you call my name on a mountain high

Always on my mind
Always in my dreams
I wanna hold you close with me
Always, all the time!





I miss you soo much!!!!
That's is the true!!!